Wednesday, September 22, 2010

And So It Begins...


We are now officially out of the "pre-deployment" stage, and in the "deployment" stage. I have to admit, there is a sense of relief that comes with that - - just getting past all of the fear and anticipation, wondering how the children will fare, all of our different stresses and how they manifest. I am glad to now focus my energy on counting down the days until Steve comes home, rather than counting the days with dread until he has to leave.

As for the boys, I'm not sure that Griffin still really understands the fact that Steve will be gone for such a long period of time. He hasn't said much outside of, "I miss my Dad!" about a dozen times per day. Right before Steve boarded his plane, the four of us were having a bit of an emotional moment, when Griffin said, "SNAP OUT OF IT!" to the rest of us ~ he's not big on getting all touchy-feely, apparently. Camden has had a rough few days, and I will admit that seeing him hurt like that was more difficult than I was prepared for. I'm sure we will have more bumps along the way, but I know we will be fine.

I keep thinking about how lucky I am, that I get to be here, in our home, with our children. I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it is for Steve, having to go without seeing his boys for such a long time. I am so proud of him.

6 comments:

  1. Oh Heather you brought tears to my eyes. Deployment is hard enough but to watch your children go through it as you said....thinking of you all!

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  2. I can't begin to fathom the emotional turmoil for all of you...my husband has told me that when his father was in the military, the entire family served - and I can definitely see that.

    I've been reading your other blog, and I'm very glad that your parents are able to be with you!

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  3. I went onto all 3 Boise news stations websites and watched their stories from the departure. I was looking for you guys but didn't see you. I know you guys are going to be just fine but it still made me cry. I hope the boys and you are doing okay.

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  4. Melissa!! I had to go and check your profile to see if it was "you"...please update your blog...I've checked it a zillion times to see what those sweet girls of yours have been up to! :)

    Kate I have to tell you that before Steve left, the four of us were sitting together in the hangar with all the other soldiers and families. The Fox affiliate was right next to us conducting interviews, and I kid you not, the reporter was interviewing a little girl, maybe 8 years old or so, and the reporter said, "So, this is the first time your dad has been deployed. Do you think you'll miss him while he's gone??" Seriously, I almost had to get up and smack her! Also, Steve is not a fan of news cameras at all, so there is zero chance any of us were caught on film! :) The boys and I are doing well - - I'm feeling kind of down in the dumps today, and Griff is super-clingy, but I expected that. I always look forward to seeing Steve at the end of the day and just knowing he's not coming home from work today is a major bummer. Glad my folks are next door, that is for sure. Thanks for thinking of us!

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  5. Reporters can ask some stupid obvious questions. I'll apologize for them.

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  6. Thinking of you and your family during this time!

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